there are moments in a persons life that make them stop, sit back & look at the previous state they are in & wonders if theres a better way to make life meaningful & worthwhile. sometimes it just makes you sigh about things you regret doing or laugh alone & remeber silly & happy times you've spent with your loved ones..

& currently, im fighting this annoying feeling of loneliness.

i love being alone. it makes me look back at life & remenisc what i've been through..& sometimes it makes you really loose yourself. as in really really loose yourself.

it made me think that i dont deserve this, that i have a LIFE to live & not be swallowed 24/7 in the four walls of this house; that everytime i watch TFC makes me realize how filipinos mean so much to me; hearing voices & chatting with my friends makes me really miss home; listening to opm bands reminds me of my social life; & basically everything i think of is i miss philippines deym soo much! i miss myself being madaldal, makulet & being weird!

here in one word, chelo is TAME.

haay! wtf. emo mode is soo ON! syempre as of now, im not contented. nothing's happening with my life. pero probably it can wait. niluluto pa ni papa god yung bonggang life ko. i wish to smell & eat it..hopefully, soon.

anyway..shoutout to all people who texts & calls me! its helping my sucky lonliness for awhile.